In a lifetime of suffering mental health problems, I’m at a stage, yet again, where I’m wanting to end it all. So, I’m feeling this way yet again, it’s been a long while since I’ve got to this stage of feeling the way I do recently (suicidal). I have felt like this so many times… Continue reading Unbearable
So, since the start of COVID, I’ve been getting more and more paranoid, anxious and worried, just like anyone else. Obviously it’s contributing to my mental health problems more. I’ve been having more bad dreams / nightmares recently, and I’ve been writing them down in my “dream journal”… I’ll write down a recent bad dream… Continue reading Anxieties And Nightmares
I’ve finally got around to writing about my stay in Broadoak unit. I was detained under the mental health act (section 2), so I was there for a month (28th Aug – 27th Sep). It’s the second time I’ve been at Broadoak, the first time was only for few days. I’ve already written a post… Continue reading My Stay In Broadoak
Just writing about my latest psychiatrist appointment / review (it was 20th Dec) and as always it went well, simply because my psychiatrist is very understanding. Also present was my CPN and someone from Mersey Care PALS team (patient advice liaison service). They’re always brilliant in supporting me, and usually attend my psychiatrist reviews. I… Continue reading Psychiatrist Review
I started psychotherapy 2 weeks ago, at Mersey Care psychotherapy department. I’ve had 2 sessions so far, and I’ve met the psychotherapist before earlier in the year I think it was, for assessments. So it helps when you’ve already met the person before and they already know a bit about you anyway, that was a… Continue reading Psychotherapy Sessions
I was just thinking, the importance of understanding, within the support one receives from e.g CPN, support worker, psychiatrist etc. My support is from Mersey Care NHS Foundation Trust… I have a CPN, a psychiatrist, and now also started psychotherapy… There are two things that are very important to me, one is understanding, and another… Continue reading Support & Understanding
I feel different today, so worn down, and like something is missing, the end of an era of something, I don’t know, something seems different today, a sad sinking feeling, like I’m missing something, like I’ve made a regretful mistake because I’m in a bad mood and it’s too late to go back and resolve… Continue reading So I’ve Been Thinking
So, I had my usual psychotherapy group today (psycho-educational group), as every week, and I had to have a chat with the psychotherapist after the group as I can’t easily express myself within a group setting. I wasn’t actually going to attend the group today, but I did go obviously. I spoke a bit more than… Continue reading Psychotherapy Group
I used to work at the Yemen Times newspaper in the late 1990s. The newspaper was the only English newspaper in Yemen at the time, a mainly political paper that tells it how it is. I loved working there at the time, it was a really fascinating experience. With no previous experience or training, they… Continue reading My Newspaper Job
I had a breakthrough, let me explain… So, for the past week or so I have tempted to start listening to folk music again, especially Irish folk music. My favourite pastime if you like. I’ve always been a fan of folk music, not much modern folk but more traditional style, from many countries. But ultimately… Continue reading My Favourite Pastime
Mind With A View 